I better just spit this out while I still have it in me. I'm going to warn you, this isn't what you want to hear, but it's all I have to say on the matter.
So, Dear Mom,
I know we're not talking right now, or rather, you're not talking to me. I know we haven't had the easiest life. I am fully aware of the events that have taken place that have torn our lives into pieces. You used to be my best friend, but that changed. I grew up, I became the person I am. I have a college degree, I don't do drugs, smoke, drink, commit crimes, be mean or do much of anything, really. BUT I know I am not the person you wanted me to be. I am covered in tattoos, have big gaping holes in my ears, I didn't do anything with my degree, rather followed my dreams and now get to do what I love everyday. I don't save money, I don't really care about money, and I have horrible credit. I am in a serious, beautiful relationship that fills my entire life with joy. I adopted an incredible dog that you never opened up to because of his breed, even though he is the sweetest dog in the world. Then I got another, even though you said I shouldn't. I moved to California and you never thought that would happen, did you? And I'm happy. I know you never expected that, either. I'm not saying you're never right. You taught me a lot and I owe you a lot. But. There is always the but in our relationship, huh?
Mother's day is supposed to be a joyous occasion. Celebrate motherhood. You've never let me do that. It was just a "hallmark" holiday that we didn't believe in. We. What a funny term. I miss you, Mom, but I refuse to accept the choices you've made. I will not pretend or be in denial about the truths that will haunt me my entire life. But, I have healed. I am healed. I am proud of who I have become and I am happy. So. Fucking. Happy. And I love you, Mom. I always will, even if you never talk to me again for the rest of my life. I wish you understood me, I wish you tried a little harder. I wish you would change. But that doesn't stop me from loving you.
I am your only child.
I am my mother's daughter. Whether you like it or not.
Happy mothers day.